Disclaimer (don't take me so seriously)

you wrote about a hummingbird
i would have been moved
if i trusted you a little more
am i really on this side?
what did he say to me?
did it make it any easier?
and you smiled half way
i can picture your face
i'm sorry i don't breath
and think about you now
but i do like your eyes
and the way you exhale
you search for my offerings
as if i'm holding back your rights
i'm not out for promises
i just like you around
go ahead and call her
i might do the same
i'm sorry if i won't posses you
you're not mine
and we hope we can do it
we hope we are above average
below genius
somehow still connected
i tried so many times to be clear
i thought you knew
i sent lots of messages
with with every disclaimer i could attach
you weren't up for reading
i just wanted
shall we go on?
let's be straight
come around sometime
i could use some good company

8-4-97

During Our Absence

I want it all back
I want to play cards all night
I want to sit in the garage
with the radio on
the awful DJ’s, redundant songs
I want a touch of nonsense
I want the interruptions
“Jacob, don’t so that!”
I want midnight shopping
wandering endless aisles
milk, bananas, cereal, bread
I want a long drive
insist that I stay
“Too late alone,” you say
I want to go to the park
let the dog run free
push Serena on the swing
will she love me again?
I want you to call me
I want to know it all
tell me I’m wrong
I’ve never been right once
ask for the details
see through my face
I miss everything
I want it all back

8-97