You curse-
I scream
inside.
The world is spinning
out of control,
but we shall remain-
unfallen.
You-
a child of invisibility
and I-
a child of the skies,
we both cry for freedom
from the lies
that bound us.
You curse-
I scream
inside.
Your mind is a cage-
behind the thick steel bars
of reality.
My mind is a machine-
digesting experience
like aspirin
on an empty stomach.
We hold hands
as we stand-
watching the rest collide
with the frail wall
of superficialness.
You curse-
I scream
inside.
Your passion burns
like a blazing mountain-
my loyalty endures
like the waves of the ocean.
Our God has twisted
our lives as one-
to glorify Himself
through our trials
and our tears.
You learn to love-
I learn to live
in time.
5-17-92
Come Again?
the alarm sounds
shattered fantasy
red light flashes—BETRAYAL
sugar coated truth override reality
there has got to be another way
the only exit marked “PAIN”
take her hand led her through
my best friend
she tore the mask—blew my cover
introduced me to myself
please, GOD, anyone but her…
this wasn’t supposed to happen
there has got to be another way
backfired protection plan
all that remains is uncertainty
of what will happen next
she and I no more?
I cringe at the thought
tomorrow is a new day
in her hand she clenches—
not hate- nor disgust
but a gift of love-
of forgiveness—I had prayed
that GOD has created
let no one tear apart.
(co-written by D.B.K.)
5-6-92
shattered fantasy
red light flashes—BETRAYAL
sugar coated truth override reality
there has got to be another way
the only exit marked “PAIN”
take her hand led her through
my best friend
she tore the mask—blew my cover
introduced me to myself
please, GOD, anyone but her…
this wasn’t supposed to happen
there has got to be another way
backfired protection plan
all that remains is uncertainty
of what will happen next
she and I no more?
I cringe at the thought
tomorrow is a new day
in her hand she clenches—
not hate- nor disgust
but a gift of love-
of forgiveness—I had prayed
that GOD has created
let no one tear apart.
(co-written by D.B.K.)
5-6-92
Betrayal
I feel the kiss of Judas.
His lips are warm and soft.
I knew why he had come
the moment he entered the garden.
"There is nothing you can do
to make me hate you..."
You are still sobbing,
but tears will never stop the pain
or change the story.
Judas tries to close his eyes,
but he can't rid his mind
of the silver pieces.
He begs the system
to forget his sin.
He is refused.
"I've imagined the worst;
please, just tell me now,
so I can feel the wound."
Still, you cry
and claim it's worse.
My dearest friend,
you know nothing but regret.
"I never ment to hurt you..."
The body is cold.
The noose is tight.
They say this land is cursed.
Shall I rise again?
Will I see the light of day?
"Father, forgive them
for they know not
what they have done."
"I love you still."
Do you believe
that love can conquer all?
5-5-92
His lips are warm and soft.
I knew why he had come
the moment he entered the garden.
"There is nothing you can do
to make me hate you..."
You are still sobbing,
but tears will never stop the pain
or change the story.
Judas tries to close his eyes,
but he can't rid his mind
of the silver pieces.
He begs the system
to forget his sin.
He is refused.
"I've imagined the worst;
please, just tell me now,
so I can feel the wound."
Still, you cry
and claim it's worse.
My dearest friend,
you know nothing but regret.
"I never ment to hurt you..."
The body is cold.
The noose is tight.
They say this land is cursed.
Shall I rise again?
Will I see the light of day?
"Father, forgive them
for they know not
what they have done."
"I love you still."
Do you believe
that love can conquer all?
5-5-92
Wind Song
The wind calls
in whispers
to dance with her
in the valley below.
All the ropes I held
to keep me strong
cut themselves off from me.
The fire that burned,
I knew her warmth,
her caressing flames.
She flipped the switch;
now my feet know numbness
of the slick ice
upon which I stand
alone.
My strength
could not stop a feather
from crushing
my aching heart.
I felt the heat in my side;
crucified, deep and wide.
I thought I was saving a life;
couldn't I?
Now you're a hundred worlds away,
and I still can't say good-bye
to your flame
I thought you were burning
just for me.
Everyday I smiled
blindfolded.
Are you laughing?
No, I don't think you are.
I know you saw
I needed the lies.
Didn't I?
I lit the match,
now watch me burn.
The wind blows my ashes
and I dance with her
upon the starlit sky.
She and I,
we still love you
in honest reality.
I doubt I'll return
anytime soon
to you icy flame
you keep burning,
waiting for my return.
5-4-92
in whispers
to dance with her
in the valley below.
All the ropes I held
to keep me strong
cut themselves off from me.
The fire that burned,
I knew her warmth,
her caressing flames.
She flipped the switch;
now my feet know numbness
of the slick ice
upon which I stand
alone.
My strength
could not stop a feather
from crushing
my aching heart.
I felt the heat in my side;
crucified, deep and wide.
I thought I was saving a life;
couldn't I?
Now you're a hundred worlds away,
and I still can't say good-bye
to your flame
I thought you were burning
just for me.
Everyday I smiled
blindfolded.
Are you laughing?
No, I don't think you are.
I know you saw
I needed the lies.
Didn't I?
I lit the match,
now watch me burn.
The wind blows my ashes
and I dance with her
upon the starlit sky.
She and I,
we still love you
in honest reality.
I doubt I'll return
anytime soon
to you icy flame
you keep burning,
waiting for my return.
5-4-92
My Sister
like a rose
planted in darkness;
still you grew,
dodging in between
the thorns of catastrophe.
You let them use you,
step on you,
and tear you apart.
You asked me
to feel with you;
I turned away,
embracing my solitude.
I buried my head in my knees.
It’s not the hand
of condemnation I hold;
it’s within the grasp
of fear I cover,
shielding my eyes
and my heart
from the stranger
I saw peering
through the window
of your pale blue eyes,
holding a box of secrets
that I longed to bury
deep inside my heart.
Words could never match
my love and loyalty
to my half-blood sister
though they always try.
You may never know
I never meant to hurt you.
Close your eyes
once more for me;
I pray one day
I can free myself
and embrace
the stranger
in your eyes.
5-92
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