I don't want
to call you up
you stepped
on my shoe
and looked up at me
from the ground
smiling
as if you never
get enough attention
once so green
you picked me out
my biggest fan
you always took time
but time was not
on our sides
you gathered stars
I gathered space
I began to look in
you were being looked at
take an aggressive pose
as the light shines
and I thought you
were the passive type
your shirt slides low
I have the feeling
I am not the only one
you turn your eyes for
shy liar or
is it revenge
because I did not
notice you before
I am not a fan
I thought you were sweet
and I was
the salty type
now you're a crowd
and I am anti-social
get you out of mind
because you're teasing
and I am a hunter
didn't think
you would learn
a game like this
I stepped
on your shoe
you have
nice legs
11-25-95
Drive For You (for Tristen)
I will take the wheel.
Can I tell your secrets?
Didn't have my license
but you had a car.
You were laughing-
I was far too serious.
Dye my hair black-dye yours-
you drove me home.
Always changing clothes-
I kept my jeans on,
you want to take a drive.
Five years are nothing
but exits we took
along the way.
I was starving- you cried
too many times to count.
You cleaned up behind
my tragedies.
I waited outside your lonely
afterthought.
We took the long way down
highway one. February was cold.
You said you'd rather take
the passenger side.
Pack a couple of bags for me-
six or eight for you-
sneak out, three a.m.
buy me lunch- I swear one day
I'll pay for all I owe.
You spoiled this white trash.
Did I ever deserve, your hospitality?
Explain your thoughts again.
I promise to be solid.
I will not slip like others
tend to slip away.
I must drive with intensity-
you must defend.
Such a woman to me,
strong through the bone.
I'll take to the road
and hope you need me still.
Let's make plans, don't be late,
watch tv, take a drive.
11-15-95
Can I tell your secrets?
Didn't have my license
but you had a car.
You were laughing-
I was far too serious.
Dye my hair black-dye yours-
you drove me home.
Always changing clothes-
I kept my jeans on,
you want to take a drive.
Five years are nothing
but exits we took
along the way.
I was starving- you cried
too many times to count.
You cleaned up behind
my tragedies.
I waited outside your lonely
afterthought.
We took the long way down
highway one. February was cold.
You said you'd rather take
the passenger side.
Pack a couple of bags for me-
six or eight for you-
sneak out, three a.m.
buy me lunch- I swear one day
I'll pay for all I owe.
You spoiled this white trash.
Did I ever deserve, your hospitality?
Explain your thoughts again.
I promise to be solid.
I will not slip like others
tend to slip away.
I must drive with intensity-
you must defend.
Such a woman to me,
strong through the bone.
I'll take to the road
and hope you need me still.
Let's make plans, don't be late,
watch tv, take a drive.
11-15-95
Suppose
I am telling secrets;
want to listen?
I am giving out
and giving in,
without giving up.
If you sit quiet,
you may hear it.
If you stop still-
you might know.
I often admire
the way you speak
and the shift
in your voice
when you get serious.
Suppose, I let you in
and kept you close;
would you stay real
as free as you are.
Suppose your confidence
became my confidence-
would my strength have depth
and your depth have strength?
You lock up
never too safe,
but what you leave
left open tells more
to me than words.
I am telling secrets
not for just anyone
to understand,
but suppose you do-
would you try to keep
me.
11-9-95
want to listen?
I am giving out
and giving in,
without giving up.
If you sit quiet,
you may hear it.
If you stop still-
you might know.
I often admire
the way you speak
and the shift
in your voice
when you get serious.
Suppose, I let you in
and kept you close;
would you stay real
as free as you are.
Suppose your confidence
became my confidence-
would my strength have depth
and your depth have strength?
You lock up
never too safe,
but what you leave
left open tells more
to me than words.
I am telling secrets
not for just anyone
to understand,
but suppose you do-
would you try to keep
me.
11-9-95
Come To Me
as I lay down
on this barren floor
I slip into this solitude
where my clothes refuse
to comfort me
like you refused
to comfort me
but you would say
I never asked
and I would say
you never listened
and I am always wondering
what it might be
if I were the one
to leave this time
open the door
and not look behind
to walk on through
to those secret places
where the lost go
but I am always still here
and I always keep
and I always hold a little tighter
abandoning isn't my style
what it might be
if I were the one
to be pursued
and sought out sometime
grab a hold
come to me
give in
am I worth it
take the risk
but you hardly tried
then I say
I'd rather be alone
as I lay down
on this familiar floor
11-4-95
on this barren floor
I slip into this solitude
where my clothes refuse
to comfort me
like you refused
to comfort me
but you would say
I never asked
and I would say
you never listened
and I am always wondering
what it might be
if I were the one
to leave this time
open the door
and not look behind
to walk on through
to those secret places
where the lost go
but I am always still here
and I always keep
and I always hold a little tighter
abandoning isn't my style
what it might be
if I were the one
to be pursued
and sought out sometime
grab a hold
come to me
give in
am I worth it
take the risk
but you hardly tried
then I say
I'd rather be alone
as I lay down
on this familiar floor
11-4-95
beautiful lie
this beautiful lie
the one I love to hear
the one you love to say
and we both believe
you're such the one
to give your heart whole
and in large portions
but I can't give myself
to something which really
does not exist
but in our minds
these beautiful words
damn good intentions
I need to believe
you needed me
for a while or eight years
it seems we could
have it all if we tried
you lived a separate reality
and I always dreamed
of what you promised
in our hearts
we sincerely held tight
to the beautiful lie
you and me
if the mountains crumbled...
well, you know the dream
could you name the ways
or describe my details
do you say my name
to everyone you meet
is my heart familiar ground
or do you only see
what you want to see
I cannot say I know
I can't recite your motions
but must this go
full circle round
must you still speak
of a love so deep
we become legend
in our time
destiny and fate
the things I want
so much to need
if the sun refused-
please, stop teasing
let my heart go
don't know what you need
what I need
will there still be
you and me
11-1-95
the one I love to hear
the one you love to say
and we both believe
you're such the one
to give your heart whole
and in large portions
but I can't give myself
to something which really
does not exist
but in our minds
these beautiful words
damn good intentions
I need to believe
you needed me
for a while or eight years
it seems we could
have it all if we tried
you lived a separate reality
and I always dreamed
of what you promised
in our hearts
we sincerely held tight
to the beautiful lie
you and me
if the mountains crumbled...
well, you know the dream
could you name the ways
or describe my details
do you say my name
to everyone you meet
is my heart familiar ground
or do you only see
what you want to see
I cannot say I know
I can't recite your motions
but must this go
full circle round
must you still speak
of a love so deep
we become legend
in our time
destiny and fate
the things I want
so much to need
if the sun refused-
please, stop teasing
let my heart go
don't know what you need
what I need
will there still be
you and me
11-1-95
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