I don’t know how to feel anymore
I don’t know what to feel
I don’t know if I should care
All that is going on inside
But just pushing it all away
It builds up like a sickness
Tearing me apart
Taking it all in
Showing no hurt or pain
Holding it all back
So strong, so long a wait
Silent scream lost
Lost in what
No remembrance of how it feels
To be safe or secure
Reputation of a solid mind
So torn and ripped to shreds
Showing no feelings
But it all keeps inside
I shake and I tremble
Holding on to my pride
Soon it means nothing
When emotions take control
Losing all consciousness
Awareness or truth
All the things I stood for
Lost in a scream
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