Happiest Girl

I am the happiest girl

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my fingers are full

some days you can’t
get sick of sweets
coming from all sides
her smiles kills
you’re always bound
to make fun of me
I swear it doesn’t matter
dreaming all day long
I am not a scientist
or a poet or a rock star
or a million dollar man

but if her eyes shine

I am bound to be

the happiest girl

I am sliding out from

from under myself

my unaware is perfect

for the time being
we always have today

and keep it close, tight

wrapped in blankets
and hot chocolate kisses
are we just pretending
does it matter, I swear
I am the happiest girl

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