In Everything You Do

I don't know how I'm feeling
so please don't ask right now
my mind is numb of memories
and happiness of all persuasions
I've done all I can do for you
so why don't you ask for more
you can't just walk out of here
unchanged and without remorse
you don't understand the yearning
you can't feel the loss of words
I'm so bundled up inside
there's nothing left to scar
you can't just leave this life alone
you can't be gone like nothing
denial is the only truth I know
forgetting everything I ever learned
in this last moment of our time
expression isn't what ought to be done

3-14-91

Advanced Placement Test

Do you really know?
Or has your conscience
really gone haywire
Is it really so strange?
Or maybe you only wish it were so
Can you say you knew?
When it is done is it really done
You mean to say that
you never asked?
You mean to imply that
it never crossed your mind?
What will you do then?
What is going to save your life?
Did you think Prince Charming
was going to prance right out
of your dreams and rescue you?
Sorry, Babe, it don't work
that way.

3-13-91

Slate

There is no value left for life
No safe ground of security
Careless feelings of passion
Leading to decisions of hate
No one sees the importance
Of what happens in between
It just happens and ends
No more than yesterday's news
Beginning with a growth
Anger takes over
Blame it, blame someone
I want to be free!
Move on to normal
Forgetting the past
Scars remain forever
Or can you wipe them clean

3-8-91