The Blame

Damn this world!
Damn this body of mine,
constantly desiring immortality.
I am always fighting against
everything I believe in.
Forever, I ask myself
why I can't do right.
Damn society-
taunting my lust for acceptance,
pushing my heart to give in.
People with their pseudo freedom
gnaw at my resistance until it bleeds.
Damn religion for judging me
without considering my pain.
Damn their publicized pain
and circle of outward elite
while their children live
in the arms of a laughing world.
I'm not trying to avoid the blame-
I know my world
and God who protects me.
I just wish
I could do things right
and be a child
my Father could be proud of.

2-20-93

You Keep Me

Oh, to live
in your eyes approval!
To know in your heart,
you keep me.
To know behind that smile
is the purest of love
just for me.
To hear your voice
call my name
and watch your lips
call to me
is to my soul
the sweetest song.
Just to feel
your hand in mine
is all the answers
I need to know.
To live desired
by one such as you
lies the whole key
to my heart.
To know you
like eagles
know the sky,
to need you
like the tide
needs the moon,
would be my destiny.
I'd be your joy
and your love.
I'd be your anger
and your pain.
I would be everything
for you,
if you only ask of me.

2-20-93