beautiful lie

this beautiful lie
the one I love to hear
the one you love to say
and we both believe
you're such the one
to give your heart whole
and in large portions
but I can't give myself
to something which really
does not exist
but in our minds
these beautiful words
damn good intentions
I need to believe
you needed me
for a while or eight years
it seems we could
have it all if we tried
you lived a separate reality
and I always dreamed
of what you promised
in our hearts
we sincerely held tight
to the beautiful lie
you and me
if the mountains crumbled...
well, you know the dream

could you name the ways
or describe my details
do you say my name
to everyone you meet
is my heart familiar ground
or do you only see
what you want to see
I cannot say I know
I can't recite your motions
but must this go
full circle round
must you still speak
of a love so deep
we become legend
in our time
destiny and fate
the things I want
so much to need
if the sun refused-
please, stop teasing
let my heart go
don't know what you need
what I need
will there still be
you and me

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