Should I…

Should I curse God,
or make Him my lover?
In all the world
There lies but one truth-
oh! For life to be
so simplistic;
for meaning
to be so readily grasped!

I am searching the world
for Sincerity,
Honesty-
what a beautiful thought!
In a wold caked
with infinite deception,
Mm heart and eyes
look toward the skies.

I know!
I know I am self-chained
from inside!
Do I care?
Should I care?
Isn’t caring self-denial?

Oh, God!
Can I really be real?
You are;
aren’t I?

This brittle body
and this heart of stone
want nothing more
than to be torn apart.
This is my prayer-
my wish,
and my deepest desire.

Broken is clean
and clean is pure
Purity is Sincere-
Honest-
what a beautiful thought!

7-18-92