In Between Days

it's not a good day
to be a woman
no, it's not that time again
just another day
tricking the complexity
and feeling without motive
third time's a charm
but I lost count
it's not a good day
to want the impossible
stretching arms tire
and brittle hearts break
there is a smile
on my face
if you look real hard
my limits are sliding
but you aren't a catcher
am I alone in this
well, I can take it harder
it's not a good day
to be a wisher
these hopes
these wants
these desires
the reacher is denied
you can count the stars
if you have time
I am counting cracks
mapping across my soul
damn
I have too much free time

8-17-95