Answering Machine

Once again-
I rationalize you
into nothing.
You telephoned,
so considerate-
no, just bored
very lonely.
Like me.
You said it's love.
I say desperation
& convenient.
Am I worth it?
dreamer
romantic
very impractical
Leave me alone-
everyone does.
Looking for a spark
chemical reaction.
There is a block
on the fuse,
need extra spice.
You're pushing-
I'm pulling-
I'm pushing-
You're gone...
Did I do something wrong?
Fuck me if you can.
Isn't it love?
Isn't it fate?
The moon & the stars aligned.
I can capture.
I can make you stay.
I can hold you close.
I can live the dream.
You are not...
You are not the one.
I can go on.
It's not too late.
Sure...

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