Some Other Day

Today, like some other days
I am weighted
my body with mind
holding secret resistance meetings
resist the day
maybe I need more sun
some Ginseng or St. John's Root
go for a jog
I am inside myself
today being some unwilling day
some day to fight against
I keep logging on
eye on the box
not expecting but some strange hope
being let down is so predictable
I blame the heat
August is so unforgiving
but it's been an easy year
so far, I think
my body aches
my mind crowded with sleep
I don't want to be motivated
physically ruled
my heart & head sit in the back seat
Is this mere hunger
Damn diet leaving me empty
I have no distractions
No lust or betrayal current
I am with my worst enemy
my solitary self
without preoccupation
it's freedom causing lull
I should put on my walking shoes
I kid myself seeing
the vacuum blocks my way
I am defeated
weak with nothingness
weak today
this humorous exaggeration
I take things too seriously

8-23-99