Recycled

to feel the heat
palms and knees
you withdrawal your face
into my arms awaiting
my heart pushing limits
when you reach deep
and I let you touch
in my darkest corners
don't let me down
they all take their turn
I deny revenge
to prove my resilience
I lie another day
stop eating my insides out
I am alone again
you tried holding me back
and setting me free
you kiss my eyes
caress my anxiety
it wasn't my intentions
to hide myself from you
but when I start to run
I leave everything behind
blaming only my lack of trust
I count myself empty
but you smile and sigh
because I've always had you
the farther you reach
and the harder you pull
the rush of my soul
to give myself up
and surrender my instincts
resisting the conflict
with your deep persistence
you leave nothing of myself
for me to call home
and in the end
you make me more
than I ever was
before you

7-10-93