Love, Fear, and Irony

A prisoner held captive by your love-
I was your only source of life.
You clung to me like a child,
And my heart melted into your eyes.
You drank my strength like water
And poured me out for more.
We knew no other light of day
Than the world we built together-
An island for the lost at sea,
Hand clenched, we'd face eternity.
My child, I do admit with much restrain,
At times I could wish, "No more!"
But my lips would never form
Those words you assumed to hear.
Alas, my heart would sooner face
A blanket on unearthly disaster.
Now the tables have turned upside down,
And I have become a pleading slave,
Longing to quench this cursed thirst
As Fate's laughter rings clear.
All that I wanted and all that I had
Left to join their unfinished circle,
And I on the outside sit speechless,
Knowing to try to change the forces at hand
Would only then cast me farther out
Within a role without an understudy.

10-15-92