Laundry

My will to resist you- I am a wall of gray lint
like the sort pulled begrudgingly off the dryer trap
my insides tumbling as I fall deep into this lull
where your voice both cuts and removes
these preexisting scars on my heart
missing a button can you fix?
a boy with a needle and thread
cannot see my body trapped inside the low cycle
down and down your apartment was a mess
like my mind I have porn on the bottom shelf
was that her toothbrush still?
I prefer to wait outside- it’s one of the things
I’m good at. I thought you would like to know.

3-18-99