Control

I felt my body
spinning-spinning
out of control.
I asked you why
I knew nothing;
you laughed,
cupped my cheeks gently,
and said, "just become me."
I've always pushed,
thinking you were pulling,
reaching deeper
and touching the depth
of my shallow soul.
You stopped me kindly,
shook your head; oh majesty,
I realize.
All the time I was
spinning-spinning,
eyes closed, fetally holding,
you were pushing-pushing
me deeper-
deeper-
Never will I touch
the final depth
of your essence,
in your encompassment
gently-love pure and holy.
Stop me spinning
you stop me spinning.

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