The Blame

Damn this world!
Damn this body of mine,
constantly desiring immortality.
I am always fighting against
everything I believe in.
Forever, I ask myself
why I can't do right.
Damn society-
taunting my lust for acceptance,
pushing my heart to give in.
People with their pseudo freedom
gnaw at my resistance until it bleeds.
Damn religion for judging me
without considering my pain.
Damn their publicized pain
and circle of outward elite
while their children live
in the arms of a laughing world.
I'm not trying to avoid the blame-
I know my world
and God who protects me.
I just wish
I could do things right
and be a child
my Father could be proud of.

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